This blog has for aim to help me go forward - the pressure of being public on the web, will maybe force me to actually do the things I have to do, but mostly WANT to do.
Because I am fucked up.. and as much I as accepted my weird existence and tried to turn my difference into something positive, it's still hard to cope with the "dark" side of it.
What am I talking about ? Well, first and perhaps one of the thing that defines me the most : my illness. It's called ME or CFS or both.. for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. We don't really appreciate the second designation because it's too often (if not every time) understood as Chronic FAKING Syndrome. I will talk about it more in my blog. But as I am sick for almost 10 years now, this is not my trigger.
Because I am fucked up.. and as much I as accepted my weird existence and tried to turn my difference into something positive, it's still hard to cope with the "dark" side of it.
What am I talking about ? Well, first and perhaps one of the thing that defines me the most : my illness. It's called ME or CFS or both.. for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. We don't really appreciate the second designation because it's too often (if not every time) understood as Chronic FAKING Syndrome. I will talk about it more in my blog. But as I am sick for almost 10 years now, this is not my trigger.
I always thought about writing a blog, but never really find the time or maybe a valuable reason to take this idea seriously. But recently - all the aspects of my complicated life became a huge chaos, in which I drowned. So I had two possibilities : or I could let myself go, deeply into a negative state of mind and blame life for being so cruel ; or... I could repeat after my dear Henry David Thoreau and say "I have heard no bad news". I don't believe everything happens for a reason, but I do believe that in order to survive, we must focus on the good stuff that arises from the hardship.
So here I am - about to share with you my values, my failures, my fights - mostly against society. I'll talk about my health ; my concerns regarding the world's conflicts & about my commitments ; my passion for art and mostly the impact of cinema on my childhood ; my devotion to photography - and obviously... about what I'm about to do with my life right now !
Cause all i am after all is merely a psychotic dreamer, addicted to moka & tea, a proud vegetarian, a young woman trying not to get gnawed by society codes - trying to untie these knots that have formed throughout my life, in order to be able to breath again.
Enjoy your visit and feel free to share your thoughts & stories or to contact me. I'll be very happy to hear from you =)
Kindly,
Victoria
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